When you’re done, you’re done!

For a long time I knew, I was done. I had my 3 little angels. I was permanently tired and did approximately 6 years straight with at least one bum in nappies, for a two year period it was 2 bums. So after Anton, I knew I was done.

Three years after my last baby was born, I met Darcy and my three grew to eight. When we first got together between us we had eight kids under the age of 9! The house was full, organised chaos but we managed well. Routine is key.

Now we have 4 kids full time and 4 kids part time. It’s still a little chaotic, just a different kind. Five are either in or entering into puberty. Instead of fights over toys and constant refereeing like when they were younger. It’s more car runs, picks up and drop off’s endless sleepovers and birthday parties. Our kids have a better social life than we do.

I had my tubes tied in early 2015, and at that point I was done. Tie me up and shut the shop. I didn’t agonise over it and it didn’t phase me at all. Up until a month ago I didn’t even know if they had cut or clipped them. FYI. They’ve only clipped them.

Next month I have an appointment with the Gynaecologist to prep for a partial hysterectomy. Once it’s gone, it’s gone! Am I done? ……… well at least I thought I was.

I’ve been thinking ……

I’m either stupid or a glutton for punishment or both. Should WE have just one more baby? WE don’t have a baby – we have Hers and His and they are undoubtedly adored, but WE don’t have a baby.

If we had another baby I have no doubt, that we would manage financially and emotionally. Realistically probably more so than we did with any of the others. If we had a baby, it would definitely be adored by us and doted on by all its big brothers and sisters.

Then realism sets in and my brain goes into an overdrive of overthinking tug’o’war. You’ve already got 8!

Yes EIGHT!!

People will judge.

They can’t help themselves.

They do it now anyway with 8, what’s one more?

We aren’t doll bludgers, popping out kids for money.

But people will think that.

They probably already think that.

When this kid is 10, I will be 46.

Darcy will be 56.

56 isn’t old.

It’s easier to get a baby sitter for older kids if we want a night out.

Our older kids can look after the littlest one.

I could write the worlds longest pros and cons list. Same as anyone tossing up if they should have ……..

just one more.

I’ve never regretted having a baby, but will I regret it if WE don’t?

Bec